As you can tell by the title, I'm about to start writing a very, VERY long rant.
See earlier this night I was lectured by my mom about the things I post on Facebook. She said most of them were filled with anger and hate and that she couldn't understand WHY I would post things like that since I was raised in a "happy" environment. She also said a person's postings reflected on said person's personality, and judging by my postings, it was as if I were someone who hated the world and felt like everybody owed me something. Not only that, she went on to assume that the reason I post what I post is because I want to come off as "cool" to others.
Let me clarify that not EVERY teenager posts things for the sake of coming off as "cool" in the eyes of their peers. It's ridiculous how often parents generalize and misunderstand us teens based on their observations as well as their friends' and/or relatives'. I for one post angry, sarcastic, condescending posts because I want to release all the negative emotions bottled up inside of me before my mouth starts pouring out curse words towards the people who were unfortunate enough to be in the same room with me, NOT because I want to be this "cool" kid.
Another clarification I have to make is that just because I'm being raised in a positive environment doesn't necessarily mean that I won't be affected by the negative things that are surrounding me on a daily basis. School is the main culprit here. The internet is a close second. When I'm in school, I have tests I have to be worried over, I experience pain, I experience bullying, I experience sadness etc, it's impossible to NOT be affected when all these emotions start to form inside of me. Besides school, when I'm on the internet, I see stupidity everywhere that it's hard for me to resist the urge to want to tweet some condescending tweet or post a sarcastic post, I read negative articles that involve people getting bullied, committing suicide, dying etc. The negatives in my life kind of overpower the positives sometimes and it's quite hard to ignore them.
But I do try, I do. I go on with a smile- in public of course- and act like everything's "okay", ignore the negatives, focus on the positives. But let's be real here, I'm just a teen. All of the negatives are bound to slip through the cracks somehow and relentlessly torture me until I'm this emotional wreck who wants to stay in bed all day and avoid interacting with humans who won't understand, or even TRY to understand all these blasted emotions.
Life's hard, but you gotta move on. And goddammit I AM TRYING, I just wish people, preferably my own FAMILY would stop preventing me from doing so by ASSUMING THINGS and bringing up my past mistakes.
Anyway, I'm so lazy to proofread this so I'll just post it and maybe edit this one day, I don't know.
See earlier this night I was lectured by my mom about the things I post on Facebook. She said most of them were filled with anger and hate and that she couldn't understand WHY I would post things like that since I was raised in a "happy" environment. She also said a person's postings reflected on said person's personality, and judging by my postings, it was as if I were someone who hated the world and felt like everybody owed me something. Not only that, she went on to assume that the reason I post what I post is because I want to come off as "cool" to others.
Let me clarify that not EVERY teenager posts things for the sake of coming off as "cool" in the eyes of their peers. It's ridiculous how often parents generalize and misunderstand us teens based on their observations as well as their friends' and/or relatives'. I for one post angry, sarcastic, condescending posts because I want to release all the negative emotions bottled up inside of me before my mouth starts pouring out curse words towards the people who were unfortunate enough to be in the same room with me, NOT because I want to be this "cool" kid.
Another clarification I have to make is that just because I'm being raised in a positive environment doesn't necessarily mean that I won't be affected by the negative things that are surrounding me on a daily basis. School is the main culprit here. The internet is a close second. When I'm in school, I have tests I have to be worried over, I experience pain, I experience bullying, I experience sadness etc, it's impossible to NOT be affected when all these emotions start to form inside of me. Besides school, when I'm on the internet, I see stupidity everywhere that it's hard for me to resist the urge to want to tweet some condescending tweet or post a sarcastic post, I read negative articles that involve people getting bullied, committing suicide, dying etc. The negatives in my life kind of overpower the positives sometimes and it's quite hard to ignore them.
But I do try, I do. I go on with a smile- in public of course- and act like everything's "okay", ignore the negatives, focus on the positives. But let's be real here, I'm just a teen. All of the negatives are bound to slip through the cracks somehow and relentlessly torture me until I'm this emotional wreck who wants to stay in bed all day and avoid interacting with humans who won't understand, or even TRY to understand all these blasted emotions.
Life's hard, but you gotta move on. And goddammit I AM TRYING, I just wish people, preferably my own FAMILY would stop preventing me from doing so by ASSUMING THINGS and bringing up my past mistakes.
Anyway, I'm so lazy to proofread this so I'll just post it and maybe edit this one day, I don't know.
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